Love simply is.

Love. The four letter word that changes EVERYTHING! Even if you don't notice the things changing, it is. Everything changes once love is involved.Weather it is one sided, two sided or whatever, everything changes once it's there, once the word is spoken.

Love is the light that shines from every little nook and cranny of your heart, it is also the darkness that extinguishes that light. Love is a mended heart. Love is a broken heart. Love is a passion that I can not explain. Love is everything, and nothing at all. Love is lust. Love is desire. Love is family, friendship, and romance.

There is pain, sorrow, longing, and suffering. There is joy and happiness, pleasure and delight. Love is the tears in the middle of the night. Love is the arms wrapped around you, keeping you safe. Love is a kiss. Love is holding hands. Love is a smile. Love is the shining in one’s eyes.

Love is kind. it is also so very cruel. Love is not fair.

Love is roses of the deepest crimson red, the night of deepest darkest blue, the wind, all around, the deepest oceans and seas. Love is our blessing, and our sin. Love is virtue. Love is the forbidden fruit.

Love is lost.

Love is the chains that hold you.

Love is feeling the warmth of another. Love is the cold when that other is no longer there. Love is sacrifice, compromise, and understanding. Love is a fairytale. Love is a nightmare. Love is stupid and foolish. Love is wise. Love is a memory. Love is confusing. Love is crystal clear. Love is beyond death, beyond everything.

Love is light. Love is fire. Love is in the pulse of the earth and the crash of the waves, the hearts desire. Love is the in the stars, it's held by the moon.

Love simply is.

Jibberish.

Sometimes the days get to me. Today I'm reflecting and I'm thinking WAY too much. My mind is racing, and I feel all out of sorts. Luckily, I have this lovely space to type type type. I suppose it's all jibberish, but whatever. I am in need of something and I don't know what it is. Ever have those days??

I am a FIRM believer in everything happens for a reason. Everyone I meet, I meet them for a reason, everyone who enters my life is there for a reason. Everyone who leaves my life, is gone for a reason, and those who come back, they are there for a reason too. Lately, I've come back in contact with a few people I had lost connection with. I do suppose I can give a lot of that credit to facebook, but again I am a firm believer in everything happens for a reason. The trick is figuring out what the reason is. I'm happy for all of those re-connections. All of them.

But that's not really what's on my mind.... I'm feeling very ugh, very blah. Very miniscule. Like I said, I'm in need of something, I just don't know what it is. Maybe it's just my hormones (being all out of whack as they are right now) but I just feel out of place, I am in the wrong place, and I can't see the exit. What do I do? How do I fix it? Who knows. I don't.

So this is definitely different from what I usually post, and I apologize for that. I don't think I've even said fuck or son of a bitch or anything of the sort. Well, I'll post again soon.

Evaporation lines

So, just a word to the wise....



Ladies, if you are planning on taking a pregnancy test, do not buy the ones that use blue dye. I've read so much about these damn evaporation lines, my mind is spinning.

See, I took two pregnancy tests, and there were very, very faint positives. Well as it would turn out, those "positive" lines were in fact evaporation lines.

From what I have read, and what my doc told me today, the pregnancy tests that use blue dye suck! Use the pink dye ones or digital. Oh and FYI: DIGITAL TESTS ARE ONLY GOOD AFTER A MISSED VISIT FROM FLO! The sensitivity level is different, and it takes more of the HGC (pregnancy hormone) for the digital tests to work right.

Oh and a lot of websites will say that all evaporation lines are colorless or grey... NOT TRUE! Mine were VERY BLUE! And no, it does not always take the full 10 minutes or whatever for them to show up. I think that all depends on how you pee on the damn thing. 

BAD....





GOOD.....