Fucking Stalker Bitches

Ok look, I know whoever you are, you are straight up stalking all my shit, my blog, my facebook, probably my house and work too ya crazy fucking cunt. But here is a little news flash for ya...


Whoever you are, and I have a pretty good idea on that, you should know, that when you play with fire you will get burnt. And I my dear, am worse than fucking fire. I don't give two fucks if you see me coming, or who you are. This is it, I'll post this to facebook as well, your one and ONLY FUCKING warning, back the fuck away from me and MY FUCKING FAMILY or I will find out exactly who you are, and I will take care of this any way I see fit.

See people, I realize that the Internet is a place where anything you put here is free info, and sometimes people will use it against me, I know that, and I still choose to share my thoughts and feelings and journey with you all. But see even though I knew from the start, I still choose to do it. And that is my choice. I'm not out trying to get sympathy for what is happening now, and I am also choosing to only share bits of the story.... And I also do not need to be told how stupid it is to threaten someone via public posts, or how I should never let someone get to me like this.

I know. I don't fucking care.

So, Maggie, take the shit to court. You will only be proving that you are a fucking crazy bitch.

Any other crazy bitch that wants to start some trouble with me, you might want to think twice. I have no shame in saying I fight dirty. I will find the one thing that will hurt you the most, and I will fuck your shit all up. All I need is time.

I'm ready for this!

So, I'm on day 3 of my provera, 7 days to go, then shortly after that I'll be starting the Clomid (fertility drug) and soon after that I will be testing daily for ovulation. Then, well, we know what happens then.

I'm so excited, but a little scared.... ok alot scared it wont work. I mean I know it can take a while, and I can do up to 12 cycles on this medication, but I'm scared it just wont work.....

I went over all the side effects, all the risks, and I'm not worried about that. I'm just afraid after all of it, I still wont be a Mommy.

But, I'm excited about all of it. I welcome the side effects, the bloating, the hot flashes, the headaches, the nausea, the possible vomit. I don't care. It's well worth it.

Tim is excited as well, although he wont say it, I can see it. I know his worries, all of them, and I understand. But I know we will be good.

So, I'm really in my journey now.... And I'm a ball of emotions that even I can't fully explain....
But, it will all be worth it in the end, I'll be a Mother. And that's wonderful.

I think it's going to be a crazy ride, but I will get there. I'll try to keep updating when I can

:)